So, today I faced one of my biggest fears: Heights.
This is a e-mail I sent my brother on Facebook:
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So, as you know, I have this awful fear of heights. During training I went on a ladder that was honestly like ten feet off the ground and cried. I didn’t even get to the top. Yet for some unfathomable reason I told my team leader I would do the high ropes course, 35 feet off the ground, that included tight roping (WITH NO SIDES). So my team leader is like, you’re going with me. So right after he goes, I have to climb up a ladder, then climb up a FUCKING TREE. I, having been prepping myself up since last night, climbed it like a champ, no lie. I in no way looked down, I made sure to focus in one thing, the next rung. My friend who isn’t afraid of heights thought it was super scary and awful, and she was like, how did you even climb that??? So anyways, I get to the first out of five platforms and my tl teaches me how do the first thing, but I’m so scared I can barely even listen to him. I do the first obstacle, the tight rope with sides, right after my friend comes up. (We have to wait till the next person comes to do an obstacle) So I do it, and I’m feeling slightly better. I do the next thing, the indiana jones bridge, which is this unstable ass brigde that shakes and HAS NO SIDES. I go through it, but I tremble, like I can feel my step trembling the entire time. Next platform. Then we have issues getting the next person on the first platform, as one person gets on the ladder and is just like, no, absolutely not. And the other person has troubles with his harness.
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2 seconds agoAdwoa Agyepong
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So I have to wait in front of the scariest part of the obstacle course, the freaking tight rope for honestly, twenty or so minutes. I seem okish, like I keep sort of freaking out joking with my team, and I keep telling my tl no, I will not poop off a tree, because as I tell him I’m going to poop myself, he tells me to just poop off the tree. But when that one guy freaks out, I nearly lose it, but I keep telling myself “there is no ladder, there is no way for you to go down but to finish this fucking thing” so I force myself on the tight rope, the tight rope with rope at the top, the batman thing (it’s like a zip line that you pull yourself on) which was the one I was most scared of, but then my friend and I realized that you have to attach the harness to the zip, and feeling the zip pull me up made me feel safe, and like there was no way but to fly. I made it to the final platform, the zip line, and I was calm, but the Super team leader didn’t realize that I was slowly dying. I attached myself to the zip line which is like a slide, except there is no slide, just you, on a harness, 40 or so feet about the ground, sliding down a wire. Everyone else stood, but I was so freaked I just did a sitting position and zipped down. It was so fast and I went from excited to terrified to exhilarated. And then I went crashing towards the ground. That was mostly my day, except I also had to have two minute conversations with like 30 people too. So, I’m super proud of myself. There was a point in time I wouldn’t have even been able to climb a ladder, so going 35 feet in the air and crossing things would have been an absolutely not. But I did it. And I’m so freaking proud of myself.
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